Argument-Yaoi

-Christophs POV-

You ever have those nights where you don't dream at all? Well, finally I had one. All I could remember was Richard on top of me like that.

So sudden...intense...

One of my eyelids suddenly decided it was just going to start and open itself up. I see fragmented bits of cloudy sky through my eyelashes. I can feel this constant thump against my face, I want to move and see what it is but I'm too comfortable at the moment. I'm starting to get the feeling back in my body from the numbing dullness that sleep causes. I lift up just my head with my eyes closed. Part of my face still warm. My thigh rubs up against something, when I look I almost start to laugh but I don't want to wake him up. Guess we forgot to pull up our pants before we fell asleep. Almost blushing I pull mine up and quickly fasten the buttons hoping to not get caught in the zipper. I freeze when he shifts in his sleep, arms in a rather interesting pose in the air. He was sleeping on my arms afterall. Hands seize me by the waist and he brings me back to him. I struggle for two seconds but he tightens his grip.

What the hell am I a teddy bear?!

Oh well, this is kind of nice. At least hes comfy, I like him like this. Not that I'm saying no to sex, thats fun too. My shoulder still kind of stings from where he sank his teeth into it, didn't take him for a biter. Damn it felt good though. He nuzzles my head with his nose in his sleep. I don't know why he likes my hair so much but eh why complain? I try to put my arms behind his head again but he shuffles again so I freeze. He makes this weird noise in his throat, probably a smoker thing I don't know. My eyes go to the windows, the now black clouds were now dimly gray and the rain wasnt as heavy. I try again to move my arms under him. Ah there we go, no more door handle for a pillow. I rest against him and try to go back to sleep. My ears perk up when I hear quiet laughter.

I freaking knew it! He wasn't asleep at all!

Richard laughs some more and I get up, doing so moving my hands and his head slams onto the door.

"Shit! sorry!" I grab his head as he leans up. Great. I went from a Teddy Bear to Nurse Nancy. Go me!

"I'm fine!" He chuckles and rests on his elbows. Meanwhile Im sitting on him and we have a strange moment of silence. Then it goes back to outrageous laughter.

"What the hell are you laughing?" I smile.

"I got caught...wanted to watch you sleep...you're weird when you sleep.."

"I'M WEIRD?! I'm not the one watching people!" I play along. He grins and looks down to see his half naked body under mine. His reaction was a bit calmer then mine was. Just pulls them up nonchalantly.

"Hey the rain stopped."

"No shit sherlock." I lean against the back seat, a quick sting of pain in my ass comes up and I cringe. "Mind if I stay back here?" Almost embarrased to ask, he just smiles proudly at what he did to me.

"Sure." He holds my chin before squeezing himself over to the front seat. Sitting at the steering wall. I just sigh and slump back down, almost landing on a seatbelt fastener. The car starts up and hums as we start up making it back to the house again. Hope the guys didn't need the car while we were gone. We are a day late afterall. We don't talk and yet this question kept bugging me inside my mind.

What exactly would he do with Till?

It was annoying that it kept pestering me inside my head. After about 45 minutes...should be there in 20...I finally got back up and nudged him.

"Hey..." I rest on his shoulder.

"Thought you were tired?" He smiles back.

"I am but I'm curious about something.."

"Really now?" He cocks an eyebrow, eyes fixed on the road.

"Well...it's just...you and Till..."

"What about us?" He replied in a calm tone.

"Would you um...." I look back to the backseat and again to him. "that?"

"Have spontaneous sex in the back of the car? Once or twice." He smirks and lights up another cigarette, driving with one hand. My eyes got big in amazement to his bluntless. Then I scoff and sit back down.

"Yeah..I guess."

"Hey don't get all moody, we weren't really even in love with eachother.

"Fuck buddies?"

"Hmm so he did talk to you like he said he was going to..."

"What?"

"Before I got about halfway here I got to use my phone and called him."

"Oh yeah...almost forgot..." I cross my arms. "Just for fucks sake, what else would you do?" I can hear him make a strange laugh grunt.

"Nothing you'd be interested in."

"Really?" For some reason I get more hooked into the conversation. "like?" He shifts his smoke to the other side of his mouth.

"Would you believe me if I said I ended up being the one on the bottom?" He laughs. That got me off guard. Him? The one getting it?! Wow. And I thought I knew the guy. And yet I wanted to learn more. Then again, Till didnt seem like the guy to give in to someone like that.

"How could you have sex, make love, whatever the fuck you call it without actual love?" I rest my hands on my knees.

"It's quite simple really.." He turns the car off the main road, just ten minutes left I think now. "For us it was just sex, mostly a want for pleasure from eachother."

"And you didn't really care for him?"

"Hey we were already friends so I guess thats how we bonded.."

"...Pleasure over love..." I repeat in thought. "What the hell am I then?" I start to get annoyed for some reason. I can see his shoulders tense up. "Am I just a quick fuck too?!"

"No." He snaps at me. "Dont you ever go fucking think that allright?..." He sighs to calm down, hes driving afterall.

"Well what the fuck makes me so different from Till huh?!" I didn't know it at the time but I was shouting. I can see the house, just ten more seconds in this fucking car....He slams his hands against the steering wheel and stops the car. I nearly bash into the front seat. I look up and hes looking at me...tears grazing the bottom of his eyes..swelling.

"Till never fucking raped you...get the fuck out of the car.." He growls at me with tense brows. I try to apologize but he turns quickly and shuts me out. I quietly get out, my minds completley blank. God what the fuck did I just do....I make it halfway up the driveway finally. Not sure how my legs are moving anyway, hands in my pockets. Already missing the warmth of that coat.

"SHIT!" I shout out, tears going down my face. I quickly wipe them off, cant let them see me like this. I walk around to the backyard, simple hop of the fence. I crash in front of it and lean against it. And quietly let out more tears, best to get it out then bottle it up. I look ahead and in the pathway thats covered with vines along the walls...Tills looking at me from the corner. I hide my face from him, I can feel more tears go down my face. How the hell could he do such a thing.....The sounds of his boots crushing rocks getting closer. His shadow soons covers me. "How the FUCK COULD YOU DO THAT TO HIM!?" I scream at him, snapping up and looking him in the eyes. That all too familiar emotionless face at me. "How the fuck...why....wh...." I end up punching him in the chest a few times in blind rage. "You guys are friends goddamit!" All my energy drained I fall to my knees. A shock of pain shooting up into me from the stepping stones. I can see my tears falling to the ground as well. I must look ridiculous, hope the other guys don't hear me. I rarely shout like that. More rocks crunch and I feel strong hands hold my shoulder. Till might have done a few things I never understood...but hes still my friend. I could still trust him. He pulls me in and lets me calm down against him.

"I'll explain later if you want..." Is all he says. He holds me like a brother would. I don't sob or have a hitched breathe but my shoulders end up shaking, more tears squeeze out of my eyes.

-To be continued.
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