Talk-yaoi-

Its been nearly three weeks since that incident in the shower, has it really been all that long? Hes been off in New York for the past two, this project of his. I say why not just enjoy the time off from the music world? I am, was all he replied with. The dreams finally stopped, guess all I needed was him. My arms stretch as I relax on a wooden bench out in our patio. Enjoying the breeze while reminiscing on that night, closing my eyes as it all came back to me.

I snap my eyes open when I feel the bench creak, I look over to see Tills sitting down next to me. He nods a hello at me and I nod back. The best thing about the guy was that you didnt really need words to tell him things. His hair finally starting to grow back after he shaved it off....again. He looked rather silly if you ask me, but I shouldn't be talking considering people got all huffy on my new look as well....

I can't stand awkward silences...

"Anything from Richard?"

Till leans back and points to the door.

"Just got off the phone with him, he'll be back soon." He shrugs and adjusts the collar of his coat. The weather had been off for the last week, now cloudy and wind everywhere.

"Ah good...." I look to my right, then back to him. "Hows that project?" I cross my arms trying to hide the fact I didn't dress warm enough.

"Just a couple lousy interviews, not really what he had hoped to get done over there." He spoke with that deep tone of a voice.

"Oh..." I turn my head and watch the pool water ripple in the wind. After another odd silence Till speaks up.

"...About Richard..." He turns to me and has a slight smirk forming on his face.

"What?..."

"...He fucked you didn't he?" He grins.

Okay....WHAT THE FUCK!? How did he? SHIT!

I look at him confused, pretending. "Don't be lying to me Schneider..."

I look away. What the hell?! Am I blushing? FUCK!

"Um..." I scratch the back of my head. It's so painfully obvious now it's not even funny. "Yeah...we um....he did..." I didn't know what to expect his reaction to be.

"Hmm...thought so..." He scratches his chin. "...Never took you for a screamer though. He chuckles and I glare at him. "Oh calm down prissy I'm just joking."

"You mean?" I relax my brow. "You're not freaked out by this at all?"

"Nah. Takes alot to freak me out." He shrugs his shoulders and rests on his palm against the side of the bench.

"You're serious?" I'm getting a good laugh out of this for some reason. " I mean....weren't you and Richard?"

Till doesn't move his face but focuses on me with his eyes alone.

"We were partners, once. Fuck buddies if you will."

"Why do you have to be so blunt on things?" I chuckle at his answer.

"Because it's how I am you know that, that and what we did is in the past now. We simply moved on..."

.....This has got to be, hands down, the weirdest coversation I have ever had...

"Oh..." I fold my hands and rest my elbows on my knees. "He told me it was for the bands sake..." I shrug.

"Yes that too..." He nods. Another long awkward silence soon follows. Once again I grew impatient.

"....Did he love you?..."

"Hmm?" He turns to me, meanwhile Im staring at the ground hoping to to not look too foolish about my question.

"Richard....did he ever say I love you to you?"

Till crosses his arms as if in deep thought. His face not showing any signs of emotion.

"...Did he say that to you?" He finally speaks, I hate it when he answers questions with more questions.

"Yeah..." My eyes focus on a leaf shuffling pass my shoes. My voice now quiet like someone could be listening.

"....Nope....not once..." He shakes his head. I now feel bad for even bringing up the question in the first place. I go back to watching the leaf. "What about you?"

"What about me?" I ask in return.

"Do you love him?"

Tills lucky I trust him to keep all of this a secret or I wouldn't be talking to him at all. I look up and gaze into the water again.

"I think.."

"Theres no thinking, its either you do or you don't..." He says calmly.

My mind goes blank to the water in front of me. The images of Richards skin touching mine, when we would kiss....everything...

"...Yes...." I whisper weakly. Till just ruffles up my hair and chuckles again.

"Then I think you should pick him up..." He tosses me the keys to the car. "should be here in an hour."
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